It's ridiculous, but since I only saw him for a short while this morning and 15 minutes tonight, he just looked older and bigger. Will I be missing out on too many precious moments because of work and school and everything except directly caring for my 'Rad-a-Dude? Is this just what parenthood is for a while? I'm conflicted but not confused - what I'm doing is unfortunately what has to be done for all of us to keep on keeping on and hopefully make life better. It just sucks. Did I say that already? Yeah, I did.
Doin' it all for both of these guys, but mostly for 'Rado. Sorry, Blue boy. No hard feelings.
I just hope that when Connor gets a bit older he a) doesn't really remember me not being there that much with this whole new shift in schedule or that he b) understands why both Z and I did what we had to do for the sake of our family. I sound so grown up. Who am I?