I also have an issue with leaving well enough alone. I'm still like a buzzing bee around 'Rad. Sure, he's happy laying in his crib watching his mobile or staring up at his moose from his play mat, but has he been laying there too long without person-to-person stimulation? Should I be talking to him instead of just letting him enjoy himself (which he obviously is) without my intervention? My main concern here is that he doesn't grow up as socially awkward as I was/am. However, I'm not sure if my method of forcing social interaction on him is really the best way to go. I could just be driving him to introversion by making sure that my face looms like a never-setting sun in his short line of sight. I'm trying to learn to relax about this, but there's always that nagging thought in the back of my mind that he's just too quietly content. I know, I'm a freak.
Since having a baby, my mind has been churning over how I can make his life - and, in turn, our lives - better. A different job? A new career path? Being more thrifty? Learning to let things go? All of these things likely figure into the perfect improvement equation, but they're all so daunting and seemingly impossible. How do you make ends meet without going crazy because you're holed up at home with no extra scratch for some drinks out and a babysitter (we haven't used a babysitter as of yet). How can you get those "if only" scenarios out of your mind when they seem to turn out better than anything else you have going? I love my family and am generally happy with my life, but I feel like I can always make things better. The frustrating part is when it feels like no one else seems to be in on my self-improvement projects. But I'm young, C-rad is young, and we all have a lot of growing and learning to do. I think the best thing I can do now is, as Ghandi said, be the change I want to see in the world. It's a completely overused quote, but a true mantra, especially when change seems like the only thing that is certain.
'Rad teaching us a lesson: How to just chill